Song of Understanding

If you feel I abused you

I never meant to hurt you

It was my playful inner child

trying to befriend you

If you thought I yelled at you

I was not yelling at you

It was my inner rage against my past

Coming out as confessions so true

If you thought I wanted you

I did not want you

It was my heart reaching for the moon when I'd been trapped inside too long

They say if you reach for the moon

You will at least land among the stars

Well I reached for you

And it rocketed me so far

Deep into space

Infinity and beyond

through two black holes

Never to return to anything there was

for

Kindness is silence in space

Your kindness was silence in space

I can hear it now

I hear the silence now

But I am still a loud, brash child

A crying, running kind of gal

So I just want to shout out loud

I am so sorry if I hurt you

so sorry I might have abused you

but I am terrible at transitions

better at positions

that put me in a place of loneliness

I must confess

Because I live like a lone wolf

That can't fit into your circle

of fourths

But maybe someday

I will learn the music

heed the silence

and use well tempered force

Maybe there's still hope for understanding

Hope was all I ever wanted to hear

Actually, no

I didn't even want your words

I just wanted your arms around me

for

Kindness is silence in space

and

Arms circle an eternal embrace

Part of a Creative Writing Project: Letters to Geographer 2015-2016