Idiot Monopoly

I've been an idiot

Monopolized your time
I'm losing my ability to rhyme

I want a fresh start

in a new neighborhood

I don't hate your heart

I never could

I just got inspired

By the wave you were singing

I was ready to swim alone

But now the phones are not ringing

The time goes so slow

I feel depressed

For you still won't be near me

When all I wanted was a friend

Who'd go for a walk

Take the time to call

Not throw me around the city 

like a broken rag doll

I'm tired

I hurt

I'm coming down hard

I don't feel better

I feel run over and charred

I am sincerely sorry

For all that's transpired

I don't want to be angry

Frozen or wired

I want a new drug

One that won't tease me and bully

Da cat's paper cup song is surely not thrilling

I don't think I'm leaking

But maybe just sad

That we couldn't work something out better

So we'd all feel glad

Why hurt people when you could try to help?

You told everyone about me so I had no chance at Yelp

Double you, too Oh

was the prank from hell

Stranger and Stranger, Alice fell

She reached out for her map

Wishing for true direction

but all that was revealed was anger

and lack of affection

Here we are again

I ask you from rock bottom

Can you help lift me or move me

With a company that values wild startups?

I am a 40 something startup

Ready to begin again

All I ever wanted 

Was a new best friend

In a city with lights 

to begin again

Help me, Geographer

I'm a great swimmer

and now I'm much thinner

There has to be a place

for me where I'm loved 

as a sinner

Oh, church you say

Yes, the place I can go

To really confess

I wish I could do that

I wish it would help

I don't feel it will

God's no thrill

No one's laughing at God, Geographer

But how I pray for your van to take me further

Further into a place where I can be self sufficient 

And put away this Alice in Wonderland business

Part of a Creative Writing Project: Letters to Geographer 2015-2016