Musical Wonderland (Summer Solstice Song)

I’ve been unhappy for so long

It’s really not a pretty song 

It’s truly my own fault

but I had to figure it out, myself

There’s nothing new about this

There’s nothing here to share

except that I reached the point of no return

and went dancing into nowhere

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I’m in a place where no one knows me

I’ve fallen through a hole

There are rabbits and madhatters

guitars and electric cellos

Photographers from burning houses

Men wearing crocheted crowns

Birthday cakes and fireworks

And they're playing pool in different towns

----

I am wandering amongst them

but they do not see

this Alice-like character

who can’t climb up the tree

to reach the smiling cat

up there on the stage

She’s just decided to smile as big as she can

and dance enchanted in musical wonderland

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I’m in a place where no one knows me

I’ve fallen through a hole

There are rabbits and madhatters

guitars and electric cellos

Photographers from burning houses

Men wearing crocheted crowns

Birthday cakes and fireworks

And they're playing pool in different towns

——

Back in the world I used to know

the kids have all gotten so old

I find the house I raised them in

is not the place of my soul

I run into the city, searching for a job

but it’s already Summer Solstice

at the companies in town

I’m stuck between the old house

and a new one I haven’t found

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And I dream of a place where no one knows me

Where I’ve fallen through a hole

There are rabbits and madhatters

guitars and electric cellos

Photographers from burning houses

Men wearing crocheted crowns

Birthday cakes and fireworks

And they're all playing pool in different towns

I want to go back there

I want to find a way

to make my house inside the dark lighted spaces

the unusual places of wonder, off the long and lonely highway

I long to smile as big as I can

Escape the emptiness that suffocates imagination

and dance enchanted in a musical wonderland

——

You see that smiling cat I’ve seen

That sleeps in willow trees

he’s made an entirely new woman out of me

I drank the bottle marked “shrink me”

and sure enough I lost so many pounds

but now I’m in a black hole and can’t hear any sounds

Where are you, smiling cat?

You’re no where to be found.

Please, cry out to me tonight

Call me back into your spotlight

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I want to go back there

I want to find a way

to make my house inside the dark lighted spaces

the unusual places of wonder, off the long and lonely highway

I long to smile as big as I can

Escape the emptiness that suffocates imagination

and dance enchanted in a musical wonderland

Part of a Creative Writing Project: Letters to Geographer 2015-2016